Note to Self: Which end is up again?

I'm really struggling right now, and I can't put my finger on exactly what it is that I'm struggling with. Does that make sense? 

I am pretty sure I'm at the point where I will need professional help soon, just to figure out what is going on with me. I've never seen any sort of therapist, but it's probably long overdue (I'm pretty sure I've been dealing with some form of mild depression for a pretty long time). 

I keep telling myself that if I can just get X, Y, or Z right, everything else will be better.